Words or action? Action isn’t necessarily words, but words are always action, written or spoken. There are times we hold them back, choke on them. The timing might be wrong, or things are better left unsaid. Words hold consequences. Words hurt and heal hearts. Words impact the world. Words are powerful. Listen to what is being said, feel them. Speak what needs to be said. Let go of what isn’t beneficial. Write what is desired and fruitful. Be grateful for the ability to communicate. When we write or speak we are giving of ourselves. When we read or listen we are accepting of others. You can be a positive influence or a negative force. Only you can decide. Remember your words are your power, use them wisely.
The journey is always before you…waiting for you to choose the road, to take that first step, to follow a path of love.
No one promises it is an easy path. It is often fraught with resistance. We tend to steer away from difficulties. Pushing through the obstacles is exaclty where you need to be…experiencing life, learning lessons, giving and receiving love. It is the honor of living.
Appreciate the opportunities. Allow the growth they provide. You are guided every step. You only need to be open. All you need is within you. It’s been there the whole time.
Keep walking, friend. Keep loving. Live on. You’ve got this.
Let go of old belief systems. You know, the things ingrained in your brain that hold you back or pin you down. You know what I’m talking about. It might be a family superstition, a religious dogma, an expectation or opinion of you, or a statement made against you. This could be a past humiliation, something that binds you in shame or guilt or causes you a lack of confidence. Many of these boulders of principle date back to our childhoods. Yes, I call them boulders because they weigh so much on our emotional bodies that we are unable to move our physical and intellectual bodies to start the work we need to do. When you can move this block in your mind you enter the wonderful world of emotional and spiritual freedom.
Honor what is true. How do you know what is right? First of all, the ego lies. When we choose to do the right thing it usually resonates in either our heart or gut, sometimes both. The guidance of prayer or meditation helps pave the way, not what someone else tells you is best for you. The answers will come, but you must be willing to listen to spirit.
Clip those wings and fly!
The Water Witch’s Daughter is returning after an extended hiatus. I’ve experienced a time of learning and personal growth. As with growth there is change. My interests have always varied, but now even more so. My values remain though my content may slightly differ. Be assured the voice is mine…it is the same heart and soul.
My world has been one of living and loving in the midst of water. Not unlike life, water is both a smooth and turbulent traveler. A mountain spring trickles underground, nourishing from top to basin. Rivers and creeks scream, sing, and hum along their journey to the sea. Oh, what lessons the tides and currents of life teach us. “One must balance the waters of life. With little one is parched. None, one dies of thirst. Too much, one drowns. We must learn how to tread, float, and drink. Water has the power to give or take life. We have the power to fight against it or flow with it.” (from one of my current WIPs)
The riverbed of my body has become a medium of ancestral messages rising from marrow, trickling through blood, and bubbling like a spring to surface through voice. I have learned emotions and thoughts articulated into words, spoken or written, are my water. When I deny my own truth I become not only powerless but a woman I no longer recognize. I claim my voice. I wear my heart on my sleeve, for which I no longer apologize. I walk in the spirit of love. I welcome you to walk with me.
Breath. Yours. Mine. Collectively, ours. It may be the first for one and the last for another. In between we hold space. We breathe for someone who cannot. We support the life as it becomes all it was meant to be, and when it ceases we remember. Always breathe; if not for yourself, for someone else…because in some moments breath is all there is.
We need not understand or agree to hold space, only to love, accept, and forgive in some instances. Life is not comprised of precision. While mistakes are the lessons of living, breathing is the essence of life. What we take in with each inhale and let go with each exhale is the art. I call this creative living at the heart of existence.
It has been my honor to hold space for others. Thank you for holding space for me.
****I have not blogged for over eight months. In fact, I have written very little. The end of 2016 and beginning of 2017 were months of various physical ailments. Fortunately, most issues are resolved and not as serious as originally imagined. I closed my business and took charge of my health. I apologize to those who sent messages and I didn’t respond as I didn’t blog during this time. This has energized and focused me. I have resurfaced into the public (big gasp for those of you who know how much I like solitude!) and realize I enjoy being with people as much as I enjoy being alone or in nature. I make no promises to an online presence though I plan to make appearances. For now I am loving, living, and listening to where I am being called…blessings to each of you.
Creativity: Coordinating schedules and activities
Gratitude: Lunch and shopping with family…an absolutely fabulous day and night with the men in my life! I am so much enjoying having this time with my husband and both of our sons.
Joy: Youngest is home for Christmas! Oysters and firepit. A visit with good friend to exchange Christmas gifts.
Awareness: Humor is contagious!
Creativity: Mind mapping
Gratitude: A leisurely morning with hubby and both sons. Safe trip to the mountains with family and a stop for lunch along the way.
Joy: Watching my sons bottle beer. I can’t begin to tell you how wonderful it has been to have both of our sons under our roof this holiday season.
Awareness: It’s a lovely thought knowing the majority of these travelers are on their way to spend time with loved ones. Love is in the air!
Creativity: Android photography, cooking
Gratitude: A visit with MIL at the nursing home and got to visit with my SIL as well.
Joy: Family dinner with my mom and sisters, birds at my mom’s feeder, love and laughter
Awareness: I haven’t enjoyed a Christmas this much in a while.
Gratitude: Made it back safely to the beach, time with my mom, hubby, and both sons
Joy: Sushi with hubby and Youngest at our favorite neighborhood sushi restaurant. We are sorry they will be closing their doors at the end of this week but so happy we got to eat with them one last time to say goodbye.
Awareness: The sky exploded in a brilliant array of orange and pinks and fizzed out as quickly as it happened…so glad I didn’t miss that short sunset.
Gratitude: Got started on my taxes, took down the Christmas trees and decorations
Joy: Steak dinner with hubby and Youngest, phone call from Oldest, movie time with hubby and Youngest
Awareness: Sand slipping through the funnel of an hour glass is an accurate description of the fleeting of time.
Creativity: Reading about writing and stained glass
Gratitude: Safe arrivals for Youngest and Oldest to their destinations, finally tackled long overdue yardwork
Joy: Spending the day with hubby, watching movies, eating chocolate and drinking a glass of wine, Oldest’s fabulous sleuth work in digging through land records at the court house and uncovering genealogy information we’ve been searching for many years…I now know the names of my 3X and 4X great grandparents on one line in which I’d been stumped.
Awareness: Patience pays…answers to questions that need to be answered come in their own time.
Creativity: Made a 15 pound pan of lasagna!
Gratitude: a rainy day off so I stayed in my pjs all day!
Joy: Talking genealogy with Oldest, glass of wine with hubby, snuggly furry babies
Awareness: I am an early riser, and most times I go to bed at a decent hour. Even if I stay up I still don’t sleep soundly. I’ve tried to stay up late and sleep in, but it just doesn’t seem to work for me. I’ve always been this way, wonder if I’m just wired this way.
Gratitude: My niece and her longtime girlfriend got married!
Joy: view of a gorgeous sunset while on the road, sushi dinner at our friend’s restaurant (these are the first time owners of the sushi place in my neighborhood that is closing. We don’t get to our friend’s current restaurant as often as we’d like since it’s located in another city), a glimpse of fine snow flurries.
Awareness: Decided to start a bullet journal this year as my own way of personal accountability with a dash of creativity. I know I am more likely to stick to schedules and push toward goals if I write them down. I also know being appreciative of life helps me with awareness and creativity and instills calmness within.
Creativity: Cut DirtMan and Oldest’s hair, researched bullet journaling
Gratitude: scent of wood fire burning (fireplaces and stoves) in the neighborhood
Joy: Spent the day with the hubby test driving cars. Watching the twinkling lights in the neighborhood while sipping a glass of wine with the hubby.
Awareness: Of the many things I intended to do this year my most successful was my pledge to defeat the daily Spider Solitaire Challenge, ha! That said, I did live a creatively appreciative and joyfully aware year. I did find by allowing inspiration and pleasure of artistic expression to lead my pursuits my focus was on stained glass, writing, and photography. I did manage to get in a bit of embroidery and quilting, but I’m honestly not sure if I picked up a crochet needle this year.
As for 2017 I plan to continue to pursue my creative endeavors as inspiration leads me. I intend to keep a bullet journal for my own personal use, not to be posted. Perhaps I will post on “Relishing the Moments”. For now I make no blog commitments. I plan to allow 2017 unfold in its own time. Happy New Year to each of you! As in the beginning of each year I leave you with this:
May Your Blessings Be Abundant
I wish for you a life of simple abundance; an abundance of necessary tools to learn to bend with the wind, stand strong against the tide, and forge trails across life’s arduous mountains.
I wish for you the gift of time, moments of explicit joy with those you love. I want you to open your hands wide and let time escape and settle in your heart. I wish for you time to touch the morning; to feel the cool wetness of dew as it clings to the grass beneath your feet. I wish for you the time to see birds in flight; to notice the perfection of each single feather giving lift and how they join a myriad of others to create a formation which soars the vast blue skies. I wish for you the stillness of time to hear that voice; the one that calls deep within and guides you among the living. I wish for you the opportunity of time to taste the salt of the ocean so that you may enjoy the sweet pungency of earth. I wish for you time to smell the fragrance of daily living; the bittersweet scent of disappointment so you may savor the aroma of fulfillment. I wish for you time to know the value of living.
I wish for you the gift of vision so you might see the colorful rainbow of your life; the possibility of who you can become and the immeasurable value of who you are.
I wish for you the ability to take sorrow and weave it into a basket of hope; that you might know strength is developed through adversity, and character is built by conquering fear and overcoming obstacles.
I hope you will learn to accept defeat as a rung on the ladder of success. I wish you the wisdom to recognize success as you walk along its terrain and know the valleys and peaks are not measured upon the opinions of others.
I desire patience for you to wait your turn, to know your timing is not always yours to choose. I wish you to be able to let go of control and allow your life to flower of its own accord.
I wish for you prosperity; to know it does not always come in material form and the intuition to feel the richness laden within the layers of your soul.
I wish for you faith not only in times of distress; but to know you are always loved in every moment and in every situation.
I wish for you mercy upon your own mistakes and forgiveness toward others. I wish for you a grateful spirit; an appreciation of those around you and all you are offered in this life. I wish you grace to pave a life of love.
I wish for you a generous heart, compassionate soul, good intentions, and a life of positive influence.
I pray for many moments of happiness in your life, but more importantly joy because joy is not merely a feeling but a condition of existence. More than this I wish you peace, a comfort which resides deep within and transcends all understanding.
I wish you conservation of your own well-being: I pray for your good health that you will make wise choices and reap the benefits of walking in comfort to enjoy every step of your journey.
I ask that you know the difference between being alone and being lonely; that you will find comfort in yourself and strength in knowing you are never truly alone.
I wish for you trust in trying times and compassionate hands to reach out and pick you up when you are down.
I wish for you to know the importance of limitations but also the freedom and power to step outside of self imposed boundaries.
I wish you the desire to let go of anger and shame and replace them with a calm spirit and self-worth. I wish you acceptance of your past as it has created your beautiful soul of today.
I wish you work to challenge your being, play to enjoy life‘s pleasures, and rest to recharge your faculties. I wish you the opportunity to teach your craft and to serve others and the poise to receive the same. I wish you balance among your many interests and harmony in your life.
I pray your struggles are few and far between and never more than you can bear. I also pray you grow from your experiences and your healing be fully restored.
I wish for you clarity in times of chaos and discernment in times of doubt; that you will continue to reach when you feel nothing within your grasp.
I pray you recognize the many gifts in life which are free to those who reach for them. I pray you will continue to dance among the wildflowers while you reach for the stars.
I pray you will not feel you are entitled to life but blessed to live it.
I pray you will view the power of surrender as an act of acceptance; that you will both give and receive daily as needed.
I wish you immeasurable love and continuous light in all you encompass.
Whether your needs are physical or spiritual I pray your thirst might be quenched and your hunger satisfied all the days of your life; that you know your visit here is not absolute but life and love ring eternal.
May you find a piece of heaven in all you touch on earth.
May you may always live your life as poetry in motion.
~Susan Carter Payne
When you rise in the morning, give thanks for the light, for your life, for your strength. Give thanks for your food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason to give thanks, the fault lies in yourself. ~Tecumseh
Creativity: Painting, preparing kid’s craft activities for next week
Gratitude: Chapstick, hand lotion, reading a new book
Joy: Watching the toddler’s excitement when I projected colorful snowflakes across the walls, ceiling, and floor. Phone call with Youngest. Christmas music and Christmas lights!
Awareness: My dog gives various signals when someone approaches my door or walks through the front yard. It’s funny how we can tell exactly who the person is by her yip, wag, or dance…and a complete stranger is totally different from her happy welcomes.
Gratitude: Grocery shopping for making Christmas sweets, in home spa time, reading, iron and ironing board, soap and hot water
Joy: Christmas music, two Christmas parties even though we left the second one early because it was just too many people and too much action to handle in one day
Awareness: The huge, golden moon hung low in the sky. It followed us all night, peeping through the skeletal trees and holiday-lit buildings, dipping behind walls of fog and popping up on one side and then the other. Finally Luna swooped in front of the road and led us home.
Creativity: Made a multitude of sweet treats to get us through the holidays
Gratitude: family, home, hot tea
Joy: At home doing the things I wanted to do, my pretty kitchen baking apron, Christmas trees, and Christmas music
Awareness: The wind was speaking in tongues; we deciphered it to mean stay in bed which we did. Once I was up and about I found it was 70 degrees with a lovely wind whipping at my back, delightful for the few minutes I was outside.
Gratitude: Family dinner, reading time, “light at the end of the tunnel”, Hubby and Oldest are enjoying all of the Christmas treats I made this weekend
Joy: Alvin and the Chipmunks Christmas Song! (So many memories of my Dad and me and also of my children)
Awareness: Aromas, textures, sounds, tastes, beauty…the senses bring the soul to life. What in each of these five senses moves you? For me it’s a (aroma) woodsy scent, (texture) smooth and silky fabric or a cold gemstone, (sound) music (especially the blues),(taste) a combination of salt and sweet, and (beauty) a landscape (which includes mountains and a river )in which I feel connected.
Creativity: Drawing and painting
Gratitude: Christmas shopping
Joy: Watched “Love Actually”, talked to Youngest on the phone
Awareness: People would live much more fulfilling lives if they didn’t depend on the media to tell them how to feel and act…think for yourselves and follow your hearts, people. Be good. Do good. Retribution is NOT progress!
Creativity: Crafting with the kiddos, writing
Gratitude: Christmas shopping, only a few things left on my list and will do those on Friday (or will send hubby out for them, ha!)
Joy: Tried on the most comfortable pair of shoes ever at the shoe store and decided to purchase them. When I got to the counter the cashier asked me where my second pair were…they were buy one and get one half price…yay, I scored two pairs of the most comfortable shoes ever, in black and brown!
Awareness: I get much more accomplished when I shop alone. I don’t shop for fun; it is a mission for me. On rare occasions I do enjoy shopping with a friend, and then it’s for fun.
Creativity: Playing games and dancing with the kiddos
Gratitude: A multitude of blessings, small and large. Oldest ordered a bushel of oysters for a family feast when Youngest arrives.
Joy: A sensational sunset, Air travel-Youngest is on his way here!
Awareness: Love, joy, and peace truly are conditions of the heart. I am blessed beyond measure.
Sometimes there are so many options I don’t know which way to go. It is then I quiet myself and listen to my inner voice.
Gratitude: Socks, music, time alone,
Joy: Dinner at home with the hubby, hot tea
Awareness: I really needed this week of not lifting. However, I am so ready to get my babies back here on Monday. I had no idea I’d miss them this much. When on vacation I’m busy, but here I feel like a part of me is missing without them during the weekdays.
Gratitude: Finished the last embroidery square for a quilt, learned to take my embroidery sewing machine apart to clean and repair; amazing what one can do when there is no one around to help and you need it done NOW! No pain when I woke up and very little at the end of the day, yay!
Joy: A surprise cheer me up gift from a friend arrived in my mail today! Christmas lights, Mint M&Ms, cappuccino
Awareness: Sunshine and shadow dapple across the yard, highlighting the pretty and hiding the ugly; kind of light our personalities do with our strengths and weaknesses.
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: Hubby put up the bed (in the bedroom he’d converted to an office) in anticipation for Youngest’s arrival in a few weeks
Joy: Cooking a big family dinner, wearing my “most comfortable socks ever”
Awareness: When the fur babies of the house detect a human delectable edible they prey on the weakest human link…which happens to be me.
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: Realized I misnumbered my weekly blog posts and corrected it.
Joy: Book Club Christmas Party!
Awareness: Now that I’m back to riding my bike every morning I can see an increase in my energy level and a positive difference in my attitude.
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: Completed stained glass pieces for Christmas gifts and one commissioned piece.
Joy: Talked with my sister on the phone two days in a row!
Awareness: Predictions: Sometimes it is gut instinct and other times you know people and situations all too well.
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: family, home, jobs, friends, water, warmth
Joy: Sushi dinner and froyo with the family as we are celebrating wonderful things, only wish Youngest was in town to be with us.
Awareness: How people treat (good or bad) others (strangers, friends, or family) is a true indicator of one’s character.
Creativity: Writing, painting
Gratitude: A crockpot dinner, prep work done for some projects next week
Joy: A surprise package in the mail
Awareness: Every single year I wait until a few weeks before the end of the year to order a particular business product I need on the first…sometimes it gets here rather speedily the first but most times it doesn’t. I wonder when it will arrive…I’ve reminded myself several times in the last few months to order and yet I didn’t.
“There is virtue in work and there is virtue in rest. Use both and overlook neither.” ~Alan Cohen
Gratitude: Resolutions to a few difficulties, Amazon movies
Joy: Knowing I have the next nine days work-free and hopefully healing ensues
Awareness: My temper is short and emotions are high wired when my body is out of sync.
Gratitude: my friend who helped me with PT exercises, order in pizza
Joy: hot tea, a trip to the library (checked out six books), reading, watched a movie with the hubby, call from my sister and a friend, a friend who texted me photos while she shopped and picked up a few things I’d been hoping to get out to buy for someone
Awareness: It’s strange how you think about something and dismiss it and a day or two later you find you find its significance or something of relevance arrives in the mail. Both happened today.
Gratitude: another day of rest,Reading: Book #1 is finished and book #2 is started
Joy: scented candles, hot tea
Awareness: The world stands still. No swirl of clouds move, just a grey motionless sky. Acorns and pinecones sleep upon a bed of pine needles. Tassels of the silver leaf grass are now statues. The golden leaves of the neighbor’s trees droop to its sides as if the day is not worthy of a welcoming wave. No scurrying squirrels, fluttering birds, nor laughing children. The street is not only still but silent…it seems to be waiting. But for what? Tomorrow?
Creativity: Cooked dinner
Gratitude: GPS, reading time, people doing the lifting for me
Joy: Yoga pants, fuzzy socks, reclining sofa, furry companions,
Awareness: I fare much better with a flexible schedule than all free time. Couldn’t decide what to spend my “resting” time doing…a movie or a book? Book. Then which one? I’m not even going to tell you how long it took me to decide. I have a feeling this is going to be a long week.
Gratitude: catching up on things I’ve gotten behind on
Joy: a great PT evaluation appointment, Amazon movies, books, hot tea
Awareness: I’ve decided to focus 2017 on “relishing the moment” as it will combine my awareness, appreciation, and pleasure of life.
Gratitude: Sunshine, fresh vegetables for salad, hot tea, reading time
Joy: music, friends
Awareness: It is difficult for me to remain idle.
Creativity: Quilting, decorated both Christmas trees, wrapped gifts, stuffed stockings
Gratitude: home, scented candles, exercise bike, reading time, hot tea, time off for healing
Joy: lunch with a friend, evening time with the hubby, talking and texting with a friend
Awareness: Neither Time nor distance separates close friends.
“Acceptance doesn’t mean resignation; it means understanding that something is what it is and that there’s got to be a way through it.” ~ Michael J. Fox
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: Inspiration, hot tea, order in pizza, family
Joy: Phone call from Youngest
Awareness: Home really is where the heart is.
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: Though I was late for the party I did finish both of the birthday presents to take.
Joy: Shopped for both glass and fabric on the same day…and yes, I did bump into that couple at the glass store yet again! She said on the way there they wondered if I’d be there, too funny!
Awareness: We don’t have to know everything; we only need to get out there and give it our best shot.
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: Stained glass orders. Willpower to turn down frozen yogurt; ok, it might have been the cold weather, but whatever! Seat warmers (feels like fall is gone and winter has arrived here!)
Joy: Breakfast out with DirtMan and Oldest at our favorite neighborhood pub.
Awareness: Watching the sun go down through a sheer curtain…the glimmering citrine gem drops through tree branches and swaying grasses changing its shape and size until it disappears into a cave of dark nothingness.
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: Having a studio and tools Oldest needed to use for a project.
Joy: Salt water taffy! Phone call from my sister
Awareness: Most times I am stressed it is due to my own high expectations of myself…I need to lighten up and realize I really don’t have to do all the things I think I should.
Creativity: Stained glass, making desserts
Gratitude: I am thankful my mom is here for another birthday. She turned 83 today. I hope she sees many more birthdays.
Joy: Making dessert ahead of time for Thanksgiving dinner, call from a good friend and talking to my SIL.
Awareness: Things don’t always turn out according to our plans, but faith in the powers that be makes it all ok.
Creativity: Stained glass
Gratitude: early end to a light work day, early start to mountains, safe arrival
Joy: Dinner and smoothies on the road, early arrival to the mountains
Awareness: How comforted the soul is in silence.
Creativity: mind mapping
Gratitude: dinner with family, movie time with my mom and sister, hearing from Youngest though I was too sick to talk to him at that time, a warm blanket and a chaise lounger
Joy: a spunky, silly little dog who thinks she’s huge and a big, sweet dog who think she’s little
Awareness: Love can alternate in spits of chaos and spells of calm, and it’s usually personalities who determine which mode.
Gratitude: Fever gone, week long headache gone, spray and wash and a washing machine, Oldest driving me home as I do not feel comfortable driving at night
Joy: a brief visit with a school friend I hadn’t seen for maybe twenty years or more, another family gathering, lunch out with my mom, a surprise gift from my SIL, scarlet and mustard hues across a rusty mountain range
Awareness: Sometimes it’s better to allow people to speak their truth even when you see an opposing truth in the same situation; there are times in life people simply need validation.
Creativity: project planning
Gratitude: A hard working husband and son who cut and split wood (already fallen on the property) two days this weekend for my mom, forest fires near here are finally contained. One consumed over 11,000 acres and the other roughly 1600. My heart hurts for all the wildlife.
Joy: Watching tv movies with my mom most of the day, a visit with my sister, hot tea
Awareness: Lazy days usually occur in my life when I need them most.
Creativity: Writing, Photography
Gratitude: heat from a wood stove, was able to help the hubby stack logs by driving the ATV which was pulling them
Joy: a cup of vanilla cappucinno, helping Oldest bottle wine, Stumbled upon a Christmas parade on a back country road.
Awareness: It’s easy to slip into a bitter mood when one is in pain…recognizing it and refocusing is crucial and possible when one sets intentions as such.
Creativity: Watching Youtube videos on stained glass
Gratitude: a chance to run to the grocery store to stock up the pantry, all the weekend laundry done, bumped into Oldest at the grocery store and he bagged and put the groceries in the car for me, text from Youngest, a neighbor picked up packages delivered to our house while we were out of town, two kindle books for a total of less than $5
Joy: Hot tea and Amazon Prime movies, a snuggly cat, answered prayers
Awareness: So often progress results with the loss of what was actually more beneficial.
Creativity: Photography, writing
Gratitude: neighbors, no broken bones, hoping it’s not a torn rotator cuff as it appears to dr to be sprains to the AC, clavicle, and chest…time will tell for sure (fell down my mom’s basement stairs, but only the last four, over the weekend)
Joy: Ortho Urgent care rather than an ER (Only an hour as opposed to five or more and less expense)
Awareness: I’m not as young as I used to be. Payne vs. Pain; one is not as tough as the other.
Gratitude: life, friends and family especially a hubby to do the lifting
Joy: a good book, egg nog,
Awareness: Fence-line Hitchhikers: Golden braids of the silver leaf plants wave a thumbs up hoping to catch a ride with the wind. Perhaps they are unaware one must lift his feet from the ground to fly.
Gratitude: Anti-inflammatory meds, ice packs, a good friend who is a physical therapist, a physical therapy department who is bending over backwards to get my evaluation moved up as soon as possible
Joy: Hubby cooked dinner, Hot herbal tea, hot bath with Epsom salt and essential oils, phone call with my sister, clients who are understanding of my need to be closed next week to help my healing
Awareness: Feeling weepy is totally out of character for me. I’m not weepy in a feel sorry for myself kind of way, but in waves that come out of nowhere and for no particular reason; wondering if this is the part of menopause that never hit or if this is some psychological reaction I can’t pin down due to my current physical condition. I do know I don’t like feeling this way and find it embarrassing. I wonder if it could be a reaction of the anti-inflammatory meds I’m taking.