Attitude is in direct correlation to gratitude. I might glance at the twinkling of stars in a veil of shadow, feel a trickle of cool rain against my skin, or think momentarily at the vastness of the universe as I walk beneath trees reaching for the sky yet clinging to the earth. I pause for sunsets and rainbows, but what happens to all I encounter in between?
I live my life in the realm of my attention. Though I try to find the extraordinary in ordinary moments, I still feel I often let things in my life go unnoticed or unappreciated. While I claim to be aware of the essence of time, I don’t always act as if I am. Moments slide by and in reflection I wonder where they’ve gone and why I didn’t own it as it was passing. It is in this response to awareness that creates attentiveness.
My senses are drawn to stirrings of my heart/passions of my soul. These are the things that move me. I want to breathe these things. I want others to have the opportunity to breathe in this same beauty. I want to allow this gift of life to soak to the marrow of my bones.
I won’t make any New Years Resolutions as I’ve opted to concentrate on a way of life. For 2012, I’ve chosen the word “attentiveness”. I don’t wish to live the year in reflection but to be a part of it as it happens. I choose this year to take an ordinary moment or object daily and focus on it. I want to record the impact of tiny gestures and fleeting moments.
These words will be but tiny drops filling the vessel that waters my soul which in turn grows the flowers of my life. Why not choose a word rather than a resolution for your year? I invite you to join me on a quest of appreciation, to live in the gap. May we each find serenity and encounter grace along the way.