As I sat drinking my coffee this morning, I looked outside to see my neighbors houses settled in a cloud of fog, much like I was settled into the cushions of my sofa. Though it appeared eerie with the darkness enveloping the houses, it also made me feel comfortable. It was as if we were being held in a warm embrace in the midst of this cold world. It was kind of a crazy passing thought. I went to the other end of the house to find the fog was just as heavy there. I wondered if it was just our neighborhood or the entire city. And then again maybe it often looks this way in the morning and I’ve just never noticed.
From the window of my back door I saw a blanket of fog drift by. I opened the door to see that it was a mist/steam from our HVAC unit. I lifted my hand out and felt the warm mist caress the skin of my hand. I looked around to see the random spots of dampness among the cobblestones and along the bark of the tall pine trees.
I was inside the comfort and safety of my warm house. Therefore, in my mind, all was right with the world. At least all was as it was supposed to be in my own little world. I am aware I often take refuge inside the warmth and comfort of all I know to be safe. I don’t like taking chances. I don’t like putting myself out there.
Sometimes, things call out to me for a period of time. I ignore the calls. I keep doing what is comfortable for me. I fear expectations, though they are self imposed just as the limitations I set for myself. If I have the power to create my own fog, I have the power to create my own sunshine…
I have an extremely long mental “to do” list that is not getting any shorter. It’s time I tackle some of those items. I plan to post, read, and comment when I’m not busy beating that list to a pulp. If you don’t see me around as often, I’m stepping out and making sunshine!
Go make some sunshine! What a beautiful phrase!
Thanks, Erica.
Ditto!
I call my safe space, my cocoon.
Amazingly, one of my cocoons is my car. As I sit in it waiting for my child/children to finish piano lessons or someting else, I feel so cozy and comfortable, like I’m back in my mother’s womb. I can look out at the world, but maintain the private space where I’m allowed to think, read, write, or just rest.
Oh, I have that long to-do list, too. We’ll tackle it as we venture out of our fog or sunshine.
I seem to never attempt making dreams come true because it is much safer just to dream them.
Good luck tackling your list Suzicate! Sometimes we need to accomplish or visit what is burdening our minds in order to “make sunshine.”
Thanks, Rudri. I hope I can make some sunshine!
This post felt like drinking a cup of hot cocoa with whipped cream on top and having a hand made afghan wrapped around my legs. Sunshine is great. Warm and cozy is even better.
Oh, how I love cocoa, and boy, the whipped cream makes it heavenly!
I prefer whipped cream, too … but, did you know … they started selling little bags of chocolate covered mini marshmallows especially for hot cocoa? Oh my .. the chocolatey goodness …
Shine on, Suzicate.
Thanks, Margaret.
I can’t believe how much this post parallels me. I totally understand this, totally.
I’ll be around Elizabeth. I just think I need to rethink my priorities without my blog being #1…I just need to shove it down slightly on the list!
As a kindred spirit in tending the home fires, I applaud your effort to break out of the familiar. Go, Suzicate!
Just gotta keep that courage going!
I can see a sign,
Chasing rainbows and sunbeams – be back soon.
I understand and I applaud YOU for taking care of YOU. Enjoy!
Angelia, love that phrase! I just seem to put too many things on the back burner, and it’s time to step it up!
Love the idea of you spreading sunshine in the world! Sometimes I get lost in the fog too.
Me, too, Rebecca.
I LOVED the way you shared this post, Suzi!
Brilliantly said! And I think this is something we ALL can indentify with.
So…step out and make sunshine!!!
You GO, girl!
I’ll be sure to stop by whenever you post!
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Thanks, Ron. I think you had the right idea when you decided to post on Mon and Fris. Sounds like a good routine. I might try for that.
Beautifully said and best of luck with the list.
Thanks, and hopefully I’ll be getting some things done.
Always start your day by eating “the frog” first . . . everything after that will be a piece of cake.
Good luck.
I didn’t eat the frog until late last night, but at least I got started!
Awesome. I love it!
Awesomely said. You go make your sunshine!
What a wonderful post. Good luck on your list.
Got a small dent in it…worked a tiny bit on two projects, read a book, and started another one!
Thank you for reminding me how nice it is to wake up in one’s own home surrounded by the familiar comforts of it. This alone is enough to make us feel that all is well. With goodness all around us, we can make our own sunshine. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Blessings to you, Suzi…
Thank you for reading, Carol and blessings to you.
May you shine like the sun always! It seems you are a very positive person you see good things around you which is why you create your own sunshine:) Our homes are the best place where we can find all the comforts which even a 7 star hotel cannot provide. Home sweet home . Feeling nostalgic .
Is The Sun Shining Today Over You?
How can you guess what kind of day you will have?
http://www.3smartcubes.com/pages/tests/emotions/emotions_instructions.asp
The sun is always shining…sometimes I just have to push the clouds out of the way.
i truly adore your spirit. hope you made a lot of sunshine for yourself and those around you.
I’m going to try!
taking a break? missing your poem and post. have a beautiful time.
Just slowing down, trying to find a rhythym that allows me to do all the things I want to do. Have taken some time to read. I will probably post tomorrow. I am thinking of posting on Mon and Fris. Not sure about my poetry blog, probably just whenever the urge hits me there.
How badly i will miss your poems
hope your muse starts haunting you 24×7
Hope there is plenty of sunshine reflected back wherever you beam it out
Sunshine is such a good thing, the more you can make, the better! I think for most of us, there comes a time when we need to back away from what we’ve been doing regularly for awhile, just long enough to get our perspective back and to determine what it is that is the most important to us and what it is we really want to spend our time on. It’s a good thing, resting in our safe harbors for awhile.
Funny how that mental to do list seems to grow rather than get shorter, and it’s not easy to make everything work at the same time, making sunshine is most important and by doing this you keep yourself out of the shadows
You are full of light, let it shine.
What a wonderful way to see it …. “making sunshine”. It has been so dark here these past 3 months, I literally wish I could make the sun shine. My sunshine making time will be this summer (I have 3 months without school bells)
Enjoy your “making sunshine” time … I bet you are going to find out you have a million more things to blog about by taking that special time.
I can handle the cold, as long as the sun is shining! I actually loved being outside for 90 minutes yesterday shoveling – loved the fresh air!
I wish you the best as you tackle that list, lift the fog and let the sun shine
Making sunshine.
Oh, that’s a worthwhile venture indeed.
Best of luck
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Ha, you’re falling off the bloggy earth as I’m fighting to get back into it! I get it though, real life is so much more important than blogging, so much more present. Mine has been missing the part where I use the adult portion of my brain so I’m trying to get back to that place.
Your thoughts are deeply moving. Your words described it perfectly. On Feb 1st, when all was right in your world, we were bracing for the mother of all winter storms! All wasn’t right in our world, but from inside my house, I was oddly very calm!